It has been a really long and hard weekend, not only for me.. but especially for the martin family. It's hard to loose someone you love, and as I sat there listening to people talk about Kuya Jesse, there was only one moment that kept replaying in my mind. It was that one time that darryl told me to come with him to play basketball, and the moment that kuya jesse saw me, he said hi to me. &also, that one day at Auntie Gretchen, when he said he didn't like filipino girls cuhs they were drama. Lol, ohh<3. style="font-style: italic;">I wish things could get back to its normal phase..
On top of this emotional surrounding that I've been on, it doesnt really help when I'm fighting with my mom the day of mother's day! Of all days for us to be "fighting", it had to be this day huh? Bleh, I wish I coulda told her happy mother's day and that I love her with all my heart, cuhs she's truly my hero. But, my emotions took over me, and I was just REALLY mad, of all people.. I really thought she would understand my place.
With all of this, I had a lot of time with myself.. cuhs I've been away from darryl, since I know right now he needs to be with his family. I had time to actually study, and oh my gosh, I got a 96% on my recent math exam, so my class percentage is 88%.. I'm almost to an A, so hopefully I don't fall back from here on. I feel very happy and accomplished though my emotions jst keeps pouring through.
I probably will have so much free time now a days, since someone will be busy running his own life, there's nothing I could really do about it.. but cheer him on and be happy for him. Sooner or later, we have to depart anyways.. cuhs we have to focus on OUR life as an individual. I have been listening to a lot of these type of songs to prepare me for that day. I really don't know what's going to happen from then on with my life.
