September 23, 2009

Depressed than ever.

I really miss my long hair! I keep complaining and people jst keep saying "It'll grow back," I know it will! I just want my hair back now. Lol, I'm so mad at myself.. I keep thinking back to that moment when I told the lady how I wanted my hair& it keeps replaying back in my head, what if I told her I jst wanted to thin out my hair instead of cutting almost all of my hair! It's so funny too cuhs I know how much I hate short hair and yet I went and chopped off my hair. Such a bad decision& now I'm crying and awaiting for this damn hair to grow. I've been looking around for extensions and seeing what my options are, but I think about the price.. is it worth it? Hah.

I know I said I hated school, I only did because it wasn't taking me anywhere. This budget cut affected me cus classes were cut back therefore almost everything is full& I couldn't even get in to any science classes. So my plans of getting out and transferring might be postponed. FML! Right now though, I love my developmental psych and socio class. :)

Alot has happened, you don't even know. I'm refraining from this whole blogging thing cus I jst don't have time. Straightening out my life is harder than I thought! Whew, but the ride is coming along.. getting old is something I can't get over. I jst can't wait till I'm fully independent. I miss a lot of things, and somethings never change. It never left me alone.. I'm working on it though. There's jst a lot going on that even my mind can't settle on what to do. I've accomplished alot over the year and failed a good amount, but what's life without the negativity right? I guess patience is key.